Loving you

I love you so much…

If life give me another opportunity,

To choose who I’m going to fall in love with,

Still I will choose you.

I maybe in pain or hardship by loving you

But it’s worth the sacrifice

Because I believe that love is patient,

Love is kind, love is not selfish and does not envy.

It needs a wider – range of understanding…A true love waits ’til eternity…

 

Every time I complained about the relationship that we have,

Time and Feelings are almost gone

But still we keep on holding’ on

And managed to saved and revived the so called

“Love at First Sight”

We both know that the feelings and moment

We shared together perhaps is not that long enough?

To prove and conclude if it is a True Love

However I didn’t loss hope and I’m crossing my fingers

That these feelings we have right now

Will lead us somewhere, we wanted to be…

 

I also hold on to the promise you made

That you want to spend the last breath with me,

And I am very much thankful even with your hectic scheduled

You still managed to spent a little time for me,

Even sometimes you didn’t showed up coz I know your work is your priority,

It hurts coz people around me kept on taunting in me

That gives question in me, if do I still hold on or should I let go????

There are those times I loss confidence of myself

To the extent that I even ask myself and people around me

Am I that bad? Do I not look good????

Or even me, I said to myself

I am the most stupid idiot that I had known in this entire world.

It’s very unusual that someone will admit for her stupidity and that was me.

Its sounds funny but it’s true.

 

Because of you I learned a lot of things that helps me grew in life.

You’re an inspiration to me. You showed me how you struggle and forge your way to a new horizon

You show me the courage, hard work, dedication, strength and the will to keep on

No matter how hard and difficult the course of journey this life’s bring.

Your growth has helped me to face my own challenges

You deserved to be credited for all that I am right now

And thank you for showing those around you

How not to ever let go.

 

Most of the times your life is your work

You tend to forget that there are also other things important aside from work…

It doesn’t mean that you just have to be in work all the time…

Yes. We need to work in order to earn for a living,

Bonus points if you attend greater achievements in your work

It’s a fulfilment as individuals.

 

And you are almost there on top of your career

But you forgot yourself in a way that you don’t even have time to rest

And perhaps you’re not aware that there are people you’re taken for granted along the way, the people who really cares, love you, and will always be there for you no matter what happen.

Don’t wait for the day when you sit back

 And relax you will see yourself alone

Nobody there, all is gone…

 

One thing I can assure you that

I will understand you to the best that I can

And give my all out support in everything that you do.

I love you and I will always be here for you.

 

Im Scared

There are times that I’m afraid

For what is going to happen in the future

My life is unstable and don’t know what to do

I live each day as a natural day without thinking for tomorrow

But I’m scared because I’m not yet prepared for anything…

 

In this life there is no certain except death,

Everything change from time to time,

May it be people, places or time…?

It’s beyond our control.

 

If only given the chance and opportunity

I wanted to live my life in a meaningful way

To help and know people in real sense…

I want to spend time with my love ones

And take care of them in any way I can.

I want to correct all my mistakes

And have positive outlook in life.

 

I’m a carefree person, I don’t care of what tomorrow brings

 Nevertheless I’m very apprehensive of what is going to be happen. However I can’t help myself, to live my life each moment of all the things along with people around me without any thoughts or doubts…

 

I’m very generous and friendly to all but most of the people misunderstood me, thinking I’m very much choosy, vane and snob. But I’m not, if you get to know me better I’m very approachable and loyal…even to the extent that if anyone needs me or my help I can lend my arms or even a single penny in my pocket I do offer. I cannot resist especially when in needs.

 

I’m very compassionate though most of the times people abuse it, I can’t bear hatred or grudges in my heart no matter how painful  people did to me at very instance I can forgive easily without a doubt whole heartedly… I don’t know if it’s a gift or it’s a curse but I consider it as a  gift though sometimes it gives me troubles…nevertheless I always do follow my heart  which reach to the point that my mind tells me that it’s wrong…

I admit it’s my weakness which it’s really hard for me to overcome. I want to be strong in this aspect but I’m so pathetic, can’t help myself. My heart ruled over my head…I’m scared to be hurt, I cannot handle the pain in my heart I rather am hurt physically than emotionally…

 

May God forgive all my wrong doings and give me the will to conquer my weaknesses…I submit myself whole heartedly to you My God for whatever future brings. I believe that all that is going to happen is your will my Lord…I will not asked for more, Allah gave me everything with full of surprises…God is great…God is almighty … God is so good to me…even though most of the time, I took Him for granted but he never despise me. I love you Lord, forgive all my sins and save me from the fire of hell… I’m nothing without you oh Lord. I humbly vow down myself and submit it to you. Allah, the One and Only God …and Mohammed is his messenger.